Sunday, May 31, 2009

Funny Muppet Clip

I love it when I find a good muppets clip on YouTube. This one is a parody on Oceans 11.

Sunday, May 17, 2009

A Whole lot of Nothing

This morning at 5:00 Spencer woke up. He went back to sleep for 20 minutes and woke up screaming. Several times he did this until at 6:00 I decided it wasn't worth getting up and trying to sleep again. We went downstairs and watched a little tv and started having breakfast. At 6:20 he started to scream. Why? I haven't the foggiest. At 7:30 Kelly and I called a member of the ward to come over and check him out. When the doctor arrived at 8:00 (he needed to get dressed and had never been to our house) Spencer fell silent and went to sleep. We checked him out and there really wasn't anything that the doctor could see. It is now 8:30 and he is finally out for a while. Cross your fingers. So, it all really turned out to be a whole lot of nothing.

Friday, May 8, 2009

Trauersinfonie

If you are interested in hearing the trauersinfonie click on the link.

Days that Drain

Today was perhaps the hardest day I have ever had teaching. At 10:30 this morning the high school faculty was informed that one of the juniors had taken his life between 8:30 and 9:00 that morning. While it was not one of the students in my class I knew him because of his upbeat personality, his devotion, and his humor. He always greeted me in the hallways with a smile and was always looking to help someone who was down. At 11:00 when classes started up after our nutrition break, each faculty member read a prepared statement to their classes and then let them go to where ever they needed to go. I didn't think that I would be sought out by students to simply sit in my room and get a hug. It was the hardest thing I have had to do. It is the one thing I hate doing because I don't feel that I am any good at comforting. I think I deal with these kinds of things in ways that others don't. I like to listen to Wagner's Trauersimphonie. It is calming yet moving and covers the emotions that I feel need to be covered.

The hardest part was seeing how many people love that student and are going to have a big gap in their life without him there. I'm sad. I have had to be strong enough for the students and now that I am home I am simply sad. I think I personally am starting to feel the effects and start to cry every now and again.

Mackenzie asked me tonight why I my face was wet and patted me on the knee saying it was okay. She did just what I did all this afternoon for my students. I feel so much closer to the students in Rainier then I ever have and I hate that it is because we lost one.

Not a lot of information has been released. I hope they don't release anymore than they already I have. I'd rather not know.

I'm sorry if this is random. I just needed to write my thoughts before I explode.